The pain of goodbye

This is a hard time for me.. I have to say goodbye to my beloved cats, Rosni & Felix. I am at a place in my life, where I have no choice. It pains me so much, I can barely stand it. 
I was there when they were born, and I fell in love with them instantly. I was more than happy to take care of them, for the rest of their lives. 
Now, I have to fail on that promise. 

They have brought me so much joy, these past 2,5 years. 
When my father passed away in 2013, for the longest time, they were the only ones, that could put a smile on my face. 
One of my favorite things to do, is to wrap my camera around my neck, and take a walk with them. They put on such a show, giving me these great photos, as if they knew how much I love that. It is going to take a while, before I will enjoy my walks or take a nature photo. It just won't be the same. 

I wish them the best life at their new home, and I will always love them. 

I know this rant does not have much relevance for people who follow me here, but I just needed a place to write down how I feel.